Bits & pieces

feeling a lot of inspiration.

by feeling, i mean physically trying to hold it together. everything is a trigger lately. woke up one day last week at 4 in the morning. grey skies failed to comfort me so i found my work instead. when i get nervous, i feel like throwing up. i end up sitting quietly, trying to attack my reasons for nervousness but rarely get out the words. could this just be me? or is it some womanly thing, body revolting against my disrespect. i worry about her.

"... laughter is serious. More complicated, more serious than tears." -Toni Morrison

i am also currently feeling empty. this saddens me. try to laugh it off. have been telling myself though that this space of emptiness is created through growth, not loss.